The Lure of a Healing Center Once More…But No More

How clear and strong am I in my resolve about letting go of a long-held dream — since 1999 — of a healing center and a healing practice was put to the test very recently.

I got reconnected with two individuals who I met when I was in the early stages of my healing journey.

One of them is the Reiki Master under whom I received attunements and trained as a Reiki practitioner. She was setting up a healing center and recruiting founding members and practitioners at the time. She and I talked about me being part of the center.

Like all the other countless opportunities and offers in my manifestation process of the healing center, it would also eventually be blocked by the Universe.

I have not had any contact with them since the early 2000s. Recently, following my diagnosis of breast cancer, I reached out to these healing practitioners wanting to receive some healing energies through regular reiki healing sessions — and through a female/mother figure.

Unexpectedly, they offered me to be part of the center again and share my gifts.

I’m so appreciative and grateful for their offer.

But I have already found out and proven to myself how to best share my gifts and in a way that gives me the most joy — and that is through writing, blogging and sharing on this site.

My Rescuing Tendency As the Driving Force

This dream of a healing center — which came to my awareness in 1999 — turned out to be something that was born out of my deeply embedded rescuing tendency.

My intentions were not pure. I was coming from a space of lack. My woundedness and brokenness was my driving force.

I’m grateful that my deep and extensive inner work over the years made me so much aware of such an unhealthy pattern and tendency. I have been addressing it — and with much success, thankfully.

Writing, blogging, and sharing are my passion and sources of joy.

While I initially intended for this blog site to be a marketing tool for me and my supposed would be healing practice, it has since become my virtual healing center. It continues to evolve as I evolve and transition.

Living Purposefully

A healing center and healing practice, I realized, is only ONE way to live purposefully. There are many other ways.

There are so many avenues through which we can express our Light and our Divinity.

There are so many ways that our missions can be expressed and accomplished.

All that I had envisioned and wanted to share and ‘teach’ through a physical healing center and practice, I can accomplish through this blog site with my writing and sharing.

I intend to keep it that way and keep my focus and direction there. I have not felt any nudge to take a different direction or path.

And my travels — inner and outer — have led me to those that give me joy — writing, reading, swimming daily in the sea, practicing yoga, dancing, being in nature, walking and hiking, watching sunsets/sunrises/moonrises, watching movies (in whatever medium is available)….

Engaging in these is what brightens my Light. Engaging in these is what keeps my vibrational frequency high.

Doing otherwise weighs me down; it dims my light.

My Biggest Contribution

Keeping my Light brightly shining is the most significant contribution I can make.

When I am in Joy, when my Light is beaming brightly, whoever I come in contact with is touched by that Light. They are healed and transformed by my mere Presence and my Beaming Light.

When I share my experiences, insights, reflections, and wisdom — be it through writing or verbal communications and conversations in my daily living — without me intending to, without me forcing it, without me focusing on it, I can touch people’s lives and make a difference. I AM doing my work and carrying out my mission.

I don’t have to be ‘busy’ to be useful or productive or purposeful.

And I continue to trust that the ripple effect will happen on its own without me having to figure out how what I have shared with an individual will reach other people.

If it is intended to stay with that one person, then so be it; if it is supposed to reach others, it will.

Neither is less significant than the other; both are equally noteworthy.

I’m not counting, and I know God isn’t.

I’m not focusing on how or how many I’m able to ‘help.’

My focus is on engaging in only those that bring me joy because that translates to the joy that I radiate and emanate to my surroundings.

I do not even concern myself with how I will reach the people whose lives I can touch. I AM fully trusting that the Universe will bring them to me and I to them.

‘Teaching’ and ‘helping’ and how I ‘help’ have also taken a different meaning and form for me.

The message of my guides that was relayed to me by my spiritual friend/counselor in 2010 has become so much clearer to me —

If I could make a difference even in only one person’s life, I would have done my work.

I continue to remind myself of that each time I get pulled into the “the more, the merrier” paradigm or the “selfless” way as the only way of helping or making a difference — as was my encounter with these two practitioners.

I’m so grateful that I’ve reached this point in my life where such paradigms no longer influence me.

I’m equally grateful that I have healed myself enough to no longer need to prove or show anything to the world — especially in the material or physical form — as validation or measurement of my self-worth.

Hence, the need to manifest a physical healing center or be part of one has lost its lure.

Thank you for the gift, but no thank you.

I’m grateful that I was able to spot the energies immediately.

When these individuals recognized my Light, I would have jumped right away, jumped in joy and taken up on their offers, foregoing my realizations, shifts, and decisions — if I was still the needy, wounded, broken Nadine looking for the validation, attention, acceptance, approval, affection, and affirmation.

I AM glad and grateful that they recognized my Light.

And I can just thank them and the cosmos for such a gift. Nothing more has to come out of it or be done about it other than me being grateful and appreciative for their gift of recognizing my Light.

I’m so grateful that I didn’t take a long and winding road — as I usually have done — to see the familiar energies playing out.

I’m so grateful that I was quickly able to say, immediately and effortlessly —

Thank you for the gift, but no thank you.

🕉 🙏🕉

Copyright © 2011-2018 Nadine Marie V. Niguidula, M.A. and Aligning With Truth


About NadineMarie (Aligning With Truth)

I find much joy & fulfillment in sharing my experiences & insights through writing & blogging. I created the site, ALIGNING WITH TRUTH as a virtual center for healing where I share my thoughts & reflections, as well as the tools & resources that are helping me as I move along the path of awakening & coming home to the Self. As I live in joy & align with Truth, I AM shining my Light which is how I contribute to the planetary & humanity ascension. Brightest & Magical Blessings!!! Om Shanti. Namaste...💗💖💜Nadine Marie💜💖💗
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21 Responses to The Lure of a Healing Center Once More…But No More

  1. Beautiful message Nadine. This is one of my favorite blog posts from you, so much heartfelt wisdom. I think we can all learn so much from you. So many of us lightworkers feel like we have such a big job and mission to help the planet, but it’s so true what you highlighted…“If I could make a difference even in only one person’s life, I would have done my work.”

    And by being here alone we are making a great contribution. I feel you girlfriend.
    I have to say I’m saddened by what you are going through and wish that I could do something to make this all go away. But I honor and respect your decisions. And after watching what my Mom went through and dying from small cell lung cancer and also with my step-mom’s on-going battle with cancer, I feel you are making the right decision. It’s about the quality of life and not the quantity. Make it the best and keep shining your beautiful light!! ❤ Big Hug
    Thank you for sharing and for this awesome healing sacred space you've created.

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    • Ooops…not quite finished with my reply and I hit ‘send’….

      That is really so sweet of you, Shawna, “to do something to make this go away.” I am deeply touched, THANK YOU!!!😍🙏 And thank you for honoring and respecting my decisions — that is precisely what I need. 🙏😇 It truly is about the QUALITY of life, not QUANTITY. I’m so sorry to hear of your Mom’s passing and the agony that she must have been through…and now, your stepmom. I’m truly saddened and it is heartbreaking to hear of such ordeals. But they are blessed to have your Presence and Shining Light to sparkle their way and help ease the burden. 🌟🌟Keep on shining, Shawna!!!🕯🌞🌟😇
      Thank you for being part of this ‘healing sacred space’ and keeping it ‘awesome’ with your beautiful energy!!!😍💜🌟🕯

      Much L💗ve to you & Magical Blessings!!! 🌛🌈🌜Om Shanti. Namaste. 🙏😇❤🌟😍🌞

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    • Oh, thank you so much for your kind words, Shawna. There has been so much pressure placed on our shoulders for ALL of us to ‘have to’ do grandiose things — by ourselves, our conditioning, collective thinking. It’s exhausting, whew!! Others are genuinely called to take on such responsibilities. Nothing ‘wrong’ with that. As I said, it just isn’t necessarily for EVERYONE.

      Yes, merely showing up in this lifetime at THIS pivotal time of the human evolutionary journey IS courageous enough and noteworthy enough — whatever role we choose to play.

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  2. I agree. This is a great post Nadine. Full of so much wisdom, contentment, and clarity. Kudos for knowing yourself and your path so clearly. I can relate to so many of your joys, insights, and choices. Thanks for reminding me I don’t have to get caught up in grand projects to be living my purpose. Hugs and blessings! ❤

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    • Thank you so much, Brad!🙏It feels wonderful to know one’s self and path! I’m glad you can relate and have been reminded to not get “caught up in grand projects.” As I said in my response to shawnalightworker, we’ve put so much pressure on ourselves, so much focus, emphasis, importance, and value in “grandiose” things when even the simplest acts such as a genuine smile or a warm hug are enough to brighten someone’s day. It may even be what and all that person needs.

      Sending Much L💜ve, Big Hugs 🤗, & Infinite, Magical Blessings right back your way, Brad!!!😇❤🌞🌈🌜🌟 Om Shanti. Namaste.🙏🕯🌟🕯🙏

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    • Doris, I just checked your profile, and your email address shows the host country to be Germany. Now that probably helps explain what came across to me as a lack of appropriateness in your choice of words. That perhaps it is because English is a second language to you. As I said, I wasn’t sure if your intention or what you meant was for me ‘to be pitied.’ If it wasn’t and if the inaccuracy in your message is language-related, mea culpa.🙏🙏🙏

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  3. Renee says:

    I also can sooo very much relate with what you wrote! That ‘long and winding road’….no longer necessary! Instead, a bright healing is happening on the inside now instead of trying to please others!
    ‘To Thine Own Self Be True’! Thank you for your uplifting thoughts Nadine!

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    • Thank you so much, too, Renee!!!🙏 I’m glad you can relate. May Truth shine on our paths so we can all be true to ourselves, and as a result, be true to others!

      Much L💗 ve to you, Renee, & Brightest Magical Blessings!!!🌛🌈🌜🕯🌟🕯 Om Shanti. Namaste.😇🙏😇


  4. Reblogged this on writing to freedom and commented:
    This post by NadineMarie resonates strongly for me. It is so easy to get caught up in the pull to be busy with grand projects, thinking that we must do something big to make a difference.

    But we matter regardless of what we do, and we can make a difference in simply going about our daily lives with love and joy. I hope you find as many valuable insights in this post as I did. Thank you Nadine!

    Blessings, Brad

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  5. Wonderful post, reminding us that we must always stay true to ourselves. Thanks for sharing 🙂

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  8. I share this dream. And have for about 20 years! I have always said…if I could just help ONE person on their healing journey that would be perfect. I have much experience with trauma (my own and others) and am certified in many things – healing. Your post reminded me to hold this dream sacred as it will happen! Great post


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