Relaxing In The Unknown

One reason I hadn’t posted much in the past year is, I had so many questions which to this day, even as I’m writing now, remain unanswered.

The more I pushed for the answers, the more evasive they were.

When something is for us, it comes into our life effortlessly. We may put so much effort into getting it. We exert too much, determined to get it. And we may, in the end, attain it.

But at what expense? To what or whose detriment?

Oh, I’ve experienced this countless times. Numerous are the instances when I’ve gotten myself in trouble because I was so relentless even as the red flags were so clear and visible! 😮 😮 😮

But it is something that I’m still mastering. The Art and Skill of Allowing. Surrendering. Flowing.

This, vis-à-vis Forcing. Pushing. Insisting.

Sure, this lesson has become so much more pronounced over the years. It has become so much clearer while I was living at the seaside.

But I still need to be vigilant about when I must put to good use my Taurus stubbornness and determination — as my recent series of chaotic experiences have clearly pointed out to me.

Life Turned Upside Down

One such question that I have yet to gain full clarity is why my life has turned upside down since I left the resort at Sugar Beach in November 2015.

Every choice that I made after that, particularly with the place in which to live, turned out disastrous! 😮 😮 😮

Every decision I made only brought me deeper into this dark hole — a place where I’m still at, admittedly. This space of uncertainty. Of the unknown. Of being clueless. Clueless not so much on what’s going to happen next, but what choices must I make to take me — to bring me back — to a place of Joy which has been quite elusive for over a year now! Argh!!! 😮 😮 😮 😮 😮

This downward spiraling started with my misadventure in Antique which I wrote about here. It was where I was to create my next sanctuary near the water. I was even so magically led to that place!

Why did it turn out to be so tragic and traumatic?

I had arrived at a space of completion when I left the resort where I last stayed at Sugar Beach. My energies were so aligned. I made sure of that.

Why the horrible results then? Where did I go wrong? What did I miss out on? Were there warning signs that I did not pay attention to?

Sure, I’ve had some insights and realizations since that horrific Antique episode. But not enough to convince me. Not enough to make me feel complete and at peace. To make me go, “Yeah, that’s it! That’s what it is!

Nope. I haven’t arrived at that space. Not yet.

A Shift — The Universe’s Call to Action

I know I need to direct my attention elsewhere.

I must focus my energies on something other than frantically (?!?!?) wanting to gain clarity. I must stop insisting (?!?!?) on getting the answers. On seeking and chasing them.

I must let them come to me.

In fact, I must stop myself from wanting to figure it all out.

When I’d have shifted where I focus my energies, I will most likely, surprise myself and wake up one morning — or in the middle of the evening — and find myself declaring, “I got it!

Sure, I haven’t quite gotten it. I haven’t quite gotten my act together yet.

But I know that I will. I know that I will be able to figure this all out. When everything will just click. When it’ll all just feel so right.

And the irony of it all is I’ll figure it out when I stop figuring it out. When I let go of the need to figure it out right away. To figure it all out right now!

And that’s what I’m releasing with this post. This incessant need to control.

And I’m gifting myself with the opportunity to Dance with the Unknown.

To relax in it.

To Relax in the Unknown.

And rather than dread (?!?!?) what will come out of this, rather than be anxious (?!?!?) how or when I will get out of this unknown territory, I’m keeping myself open and choosing to be excited about the possibilities!

I’m strengthening my Confidence. I Trust in the Divine Intelligence. I Believe in the Abundance and Limitless Support of the Universe.

I may not know yet many of the answers.

But one thing I know is that the Known will make itself known out of the Unknown.

⭐ ❤ 😀 ❤ ⭐

Copyright © 2011-2017 Nadine Marie V. Niguidula, M.A. and Aligning With Truth

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About NadineMarie (Aligning With Truth)

I find much joy & fulfillment in sharing my experiences & insights through writing & blogging. I created the site, ALIGNING WITH TRUTH as a virtual center for healing, where I share my thoughts and reflections, as well as the tools & resources that are helping me as I move along the path of awakening & coming home to the Self. As I live in joy & align with Truth, I AM shining my light which is how I contribute to the planetary & humanity ascension. Blessed be. Namaste...♥♥♥Nadine Marie♥♥♥
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6 Responses to Relaxing In The Unknown

  1. yogaleigh says:

    I struggle with control issues too. And I tend want to “figure it out” at a mind level instead of letting my spirit level flow. Good reminders for me here. Glad you’ve moving out of the darkness — I look forward to hearing you’ve finally settled in a place that fulfills your dreams.

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    • Thank you, Leigh, for making me feel that I’m in very good company! 😀 Those internal conflicts (mind versus spirit) sure sound so familiar!!!

      Oh, I, too, look forward to finally getting settled! Thank you for your kind words and well wishes!

      Much L ❤ ve to you, Leigh, & Brightest Blessings! 😀 ⭐ ❤

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  2. 21stcdee says:

    Lovely to read.

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  3. I so resonate with your post and must write about it as I’m sure many others are experiencing similar things… We also found our beautiful sanctuary to live happily for 2+ years and then life happens and you choose to leave but it only brings you what seems into a dark hole… Our new home is just not showing itself to us and we remain in a place (7months) now without most of our belongings, searching… listening to loud tools renovating the flat below… I ask for guidance and hear nothing. AND then I just know we are in the most perfect place, we are showing how we can live and enjoy ourselves anywhere, anyhow no matter what. To truly trust divinity who is responsible for taking humanity beyond… but first we have to clear and surrender all past baggage totally, doubts and judgements and control it all has to go. This is my answer… I didn’t think I heard anything, but we always do. Much love to you Nadine, know everything is perfect and all will be revealed soon… barbara x

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    • Oh, thank you so much, Barbara, for sharing your experiences. I’m comforted and reassured, thank you!!! ❤ 😀 Yes, I so agree that we have to clear all that has to go. I have been learning what it truly means to let go of attachments. Not an easy lesson. I kid you not! But it is part of the process and journey! A significant part!

      Much L ❤ to you, Barbara, & Brightest Blessings!!! 😀 ⭐ ❤ ⭐ 😀

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