Was there not much happening? Nothing worthy to write about and share?
Were there not any insights and realizations? No AHA moments? No inspiring stories?
Did the Muse go on yet another over-extended vacation without any notice as to her return?
Did I lose the passion?
None of the above.
The Inspiration was there. Undoubtedly.
The growth opportunities. The experiences well worth sharing. They were plentiful. Every single day.
The AHA moments. Big and not so big. They were countless.
So, Why The Blogging Lull?
In previous posts, I talked about the tragedy that was Antique that took place in December 2015. As a result, I decided to take up residency in the city of Bacolod. Thinking, believing — and fervently praying — it would be doable.
I hadn’t quite recovered from the trauma in Antique, already, I faced yet another disaster — my miserable living situation in Bacolod. Not a total surprise as I had much hesitation on the onset admittedly. The city and I are indeed like water and oil. Quite impossible for us to mix. Or can’t mix well, if at all. 🙂
I did what I could to make my apartment unit my sanctuary. If I can’t live in a natural setting, I’ll bring Nature in.
But one can only do so much.
There are just things that can never match or even come close to the calming and high vibrating energies that Mother Nature offers. And there are just things that usually come with living in an urban setting. Those that are a challenge to tolerate and put up with — for a sensitive soul like me, at least.
The harsh and dense energies of the city. Noisy neighborhood. Noisy vehicles. Noisy and inconsiderate neighbors.
With noise comes other health deterrents. The pollution. The crowd. The busyness and chaos of it all. It is the city, after all.
Construction and repair work left and right — at times, even on a Sunday! Then, there’s the unconcerned and unresponsive — irresponsible? — property manager.
I detest being exposed to air-conditioned rooms and vehicles — especially over prolonged periods of time. My body isn’t used to it anymore after having lived in ‘cleaner’ environments with natural ventilation for several years.
But it was the peak of the summer months in the Philippines, yikes! 😮 The weather was scorching hot! Being in air-conditioned environments was the only option to keep my body cool so as not to suffer heat stroke.
So, major adjustment. Major body adjustment. My health naturally suffered. 😦 Weekly acupuncture sessions, though, thankfully, helped prevent me from collapsing altogether!
And all the time, I was asking myself why am I allowing myself to go through this insanity? The toxicity? It’s just too crazy! None of it made sense to me!!! 😮
And I did as best I could to make sense of my insensible situation. I wanted to make sense of it. I needed to. For my sanity and survival!
And I was able to, thankfully. I was able to make sense of something so insensible — despite all the negativity in and around me!
And I so wanted to write about it and share it here. (It was actually the appearance of Bat on the evening of Earth Day which I wrote about here that proved to be quite pivotal in my process. It was the key that unlocked many doors to my realizations and AHA moments! Doors that were invisible initially.)
But whatever energy I had left was enough just to get me through the day. Every single day of the entire month of May.
With everything that was — and wasn’t — happening in my life, my energies were depleted. I was so drained. Wiped out! 😮 😮 😮
To top it all, I had one ‘friendship’ gone bad. To think it was the only one I had. The only one I thought was my saving grace given the challenges and ordeals that I was going through. I’ll talk more about it in future posts.
Back In My Habitat
Meantime, I do have an excellent piece of news. I’m back in the seaside, yay!!!! 😀 I’m here for a ‘vacation’ only, though.
But it is a holiday that, down the road, may turn out to be ‘more permanent.’
That’ll depend largely on how I’m able to put to proper use my creation and manifestation energies. How I’m able to practice with much mindfulness the art and skill of allowing and surrendering.
In other words, my state of being now is determining the course of the next phase in my journey. My state of being now is creating the outline for the next chapter of my story. My state of being now is defining how my story will be written. How it will unfold and how it will be told.
So for now, I AM focusing on me. It is all about me. Time for myself. To relax. Chill.
To be joyful and joy-filled once again. To rediscover joie de vivre.
To feel loved. To be loved. ❤ ❤ ❤
To allow Mother Ocean to nurture me once again.
It’s only been a few days since I’ve been here, but I already feel so enlivened! It sure is a delight to be ‘home,’ thank you!!!
And it sure feels so wonderful to be writing and sharing again!
😀 ❤ ⭐ ❤ 😀