Moving To My New Oasis Sans The Enthusiasm

In a few days, I’ll be moving to my new home. It’s not in the seaside, though. It’s in a city. A city that has — thankfully — some laidback feeling to it, still.

There’s so much that this place is offering me. So much more than when living at the seaside. Gifts that are hard to come by, if not almost impossible, in the countryside and more remote areas in this country.

As I’ve shared on this site, over the years, and especially through my travels, I have become clearer on what my living and home essentials are.

The Most Sensible Decision

I had much preferred country living more than city dwelling. And I still do.

Living in this urban setting, though, is the most sensible choice at this point in my life — given the present circumstances in my journey and especially after my recent tragic experiences in Antique.

In May 2010, I left California after a four-year sojourn and headed back to the Philippines, my country of origin.

Two months after I arrived in Manila, I became ill. My body went haywire. My system could no longer handle the toxicity and density of the environment. It has become clear that Manila wasn’t — and isn’t — the place for me anymore.

Where to?

How about my dream of a healing center and a healing practice? I had most, if not all the details figured out. I had them all planned out. How do I carry out that dream if I leave Manila?

Perhaps there could be another way — and another location — for that dream to materialize, I thought to myself. (I had since let go of that dream which I shared in this post.)

The more pressing matter was to find a place quickly. One without the density and toxicity of Manila. I didn’t want my health and well-being — and sanity — to continue to suffer and deteriorate. After all, Manila isn’t the only place. Even if it’s the most familiar to me. Even if it’s my supposed — then — comfort zone.

I started my process of manifesting my island home and started travelling in the countryside. I explored my options.

After almost six years, some of my ‘stuff’ are still in balikbayan boxes, the Filipino term for shipment boxes. I ‘held on’ to them because I was waiting for that island that would welcome me home. Where I’d finally settle.

Antique provided that possibility.

Until all hell broke loose.

But whatever transpired in Antique — no matter how horrific — led me to my decision of making the city of Bacolod my new home base — for now, at least.

How long is ‘for now?’ I have no idea. I’m only trusting the process. My journey. Life. The Mystery.

Antique led me to take this bold step. This nudge for me to wrap up my life in Manila and whatever else is keeping me connected there, specifically my stuff. I needed the ‘push’ to start moving my stuff — bring them over to my new oasis, discard, sell, donate, et al. It’s about time. It has been, after all, almost six years.

So, I may be creating my home in an urban setting instead of along the seaside. I do know, though, that this is, right now, the most sensible step and rightful place for me. For now. (Isn’t everything ‘for now’ anyway?)

No Longer Putting Up With Less Than Loving Treatments and Energies

I can continue my island explorations from here. This time, if and when an island wouldn’t work for me, I’ll have a place to come home to. To regroup. To re-anchor.

It would take away the option — and temptation — for me to put up with unsupportive and energetically misaligned places — if only because there’s no other place for me to go next and especially because I wouldn’t want to go back to Manila.

I’ve done that in most of my travels. I put up with less than loving treatments and energies — from the people and the place itself. I persisted when I should have walked away.

Largely because I didn’t want to go back to Manila.

Thankfully, I chose differently when I was in Antique. No matter how lovely and charming the island is. No matter how close to an ideal setting the place was. No matter how magically I was led to it.

Thankfully, I’ve come to love myself enough to say no to what falls short of what I’m entitled to and what I deserve.

I walked away when I recognized the misaligned energies — much sooner than I have over the years. I didn’t ignore the signs. I didn’t turn a blind eye or a deaf ear — as I have in the past.

I walked away — even if I was clueless where I would go next. Even if I detested the thought of going back to Manila. And even if that would have been the only option available for me.

I walked away even if there were so many things that were — and still are — uncertain.

Thankfully, though, I can now be more anchored here in the city of Bacolod.

Truth be told, though — and not surprisingly — there’s a part of me that’s aching. Complaining. Protesting.

But this is still not in the seaside!!! I won’t be able to take my daily swim in the sea!!!

And making peace with that was, has been, still is the most difficult for me.

It is the main reason I have this overriding feeling of hesitation and restlessness surrounding my move. I know. It isn’t exactly the most ideal space to be in when making a move and stepping into the new.

But I’m not going to dismiss and ignore this feeling.

At the same time, I’m not allowing it to overwhelm me. Or eat me up. Or make me spiral downwards into a pool of negativity and pessimism.

Who Knows?

After all, who knows what opportunities there are for me in Bacolod? Who knows what doors will open up for me? Who knows what the Universe has in store for me?

Who knows what is the ‘true’ reason and deeper purpose why I was led to Bacolod?

And I may not know what that purpose is. Not yet.

But I know that I will know in days, weeks, months, even years to come….

And as I shared in a previous post, I’m doing the best I can to keep afloat and keep the faith.

That’s all one can do during a most intense time of change and transition — especially one that’s unplanned and unexpected.

😀 ⭐ ❤ ⭐ 😀

Copyright © 2011-2016 Nadine Marie V. Niguidula, M.A. and Aligning With Truth

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About NadineMarie (Aligning With Truth)

I find much joy & fulfillment in sharing my experiences & insights through writing & blogging. I created the site, ALIGNING WITH TRUTH as a virtual center for healing, where I share my thoughts and reflections, as well as the tools & resources that are helping me as I move along the path of awakening & coming home to the Self. As I live in joy & align with Truth, I AM shining my light which is how I contribute to the planetary & humanity ascension. Blessed be. Namaste...♥♥♥Nadine Marie♥♥♥
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13 Responses to Moving To My New Oasis Sans The Enthusiasm

  1. Blessings on the relocation and new oasis and home, Nadine Marie. May there be lots of very pleasant surprises. 🙂 xoxo Jamie

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  2. DME says:

    Nadine,
    I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve had to go through all of this. I have been following your journey and have been praying that everything works out for the best for you. You continue to have my prayers as you settle into the next part of your amazing journey.
    You are brave and an inspiration.
    Sending you love and light!

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    • Wow, thank you DME for your kind words and the loving energies that I feel so strongly. It sure has been quite a challenge! But as I’ll continue to keep the Faith!

      It warms my heart that you’re acknowledging my brevity and the inspiration that I bring through my sharing on this site. 🙂

      Thank you for including me in your prayers, for the Love and Light! I surely need them. Love and Light back at you! ❤ ❤ ❤

      Bright Blessings! 😀 ⭐ ❤ ⭐ 😀

      Like

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  4. I love the way you write and share your journey. Brightest blessings to you now and always
    BB )0(

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