So Thankful As I Said Goodbye….

We said our goodbyes.

Tears flowed. From them. None from me.

Oh, I wasn’t being cold. I wasn’t being uncaring.

I wasn’t angry or resentful, not even vengeful.

On the contrary, I felt peaceful. Quite peaceful.

I have, after all, come to a space of Completion.

Real.

Full.

It is done. I was done.

I said goodbye.

Finally.

After several months of preparation and anticipation. After several months of healing, clearing and integration.

Thank you and goodbye.

That’s all.

Nothing else.

Nothing else that needed to be said or done. Nothing that was said or done that needed any undoing.

No mistakes that needed any correcting.

There simply were growth opportunities that were there for the taking.

Everything happened in Divine order and timing — as with anything and everything.

The joy and the laughter, the pain, the disappointments, the frustrations. The excitement over the possibilities. Exhilaration as the dreams were coming to fruition. Disappointments from unmet expectations. Anger because of unfulfilled promises. The exasperation…even condemnation.

All those were part of the journey.

And while I now stand proud knowing that I did my best, knowing I did everything that I could within my capacity and ability, I also know, so did they.

They, too, did all that they could — within their capacities and abilities.

They were my teachers who played a part in my evolutionary process. And they played their parts quite well, I must say!

They helped lead me back to my essence, my true worth.

And for that, I AM grateful.

What about them?

Did they learn from our interactions as well? Were they able to also further their growth?

Oh, I don’t know about that. And it isn’t that I don’t care to know or don’t care at all.

It is only that their journey is their journey, not mine. I have, by now, come to truly know that. Not simply conceptually. Not just intellectually.

I have come to fully embrace and embody the knowing that other people’s growth isn’t my responsibility.

It doesn’t entice me. Doesn’t move me. Doesn’t appeal to me.

It doesn’t compel me to take any action such that if I don’t, I’d feel that I failed. I’d think that I missed an opportunity to ‘help’ and make a difference. That I’d feel unfulfilled because I wasn’t able to accomplish my mission.

My lack of interest or enthusiasm over other people’s growth process isn’t coming from a space of jadedness or cynicism. I simply do not feel duty-bound to take part in it.

I don’t have to be a part of it.

I don’t need to be in it.

Not anymore.

By now, I have — thankfully — tamed my Inner Rescuer and retired my Rescuing Armor! That’s what this recent chapter helped me accomplish.

Love and Compassion.

Gratitude and Appreciation.

Respect and Admiration.

That’s all that’s left with me now for all that took place. For all who took part in this phase of my journey. This recently concluded pivotal phase during which a lot — and I mean A LOT — of shifts have taken place!

All the nerve-wracking, brain-twisting and heart-breaking incidents were simply assisting me in the fuller expression of a grander version of Me. A step closer to Self-Mastery.

And I will continue to remind myself to Trust, Surrender, Get Out of the Way as I Give Way and Allow the unfolding of the Universal Flow and the revelation of Life and Mystery.

😀 😀

Copyright © 2011-2015 Nadine Marie V. Niguidula, M.A. and Aligning With Truth

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About NadineMarie (Aligning With Truth)

I find much joy & fulfillment in sharing my experiences & insights through writing & blogging. I created the site, ALIGNING WITH TRUTH as a virtual center for healing where I share my thoughts & reflections, as well as the tools & resources that are helping me as I move along the path of awakening & coming home to the Self. As I live in joy & align with Truth, I AM shining my Light which is how I contribute to the planetary & humanity ascension. Blessed be. Namaste...💗💖💜Nadine Marie💜💖💗
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5 Responses to So Thankful As I Said Goodbye….

  1. Nice completion of a chapter. May your next chapter be awesome, as I am sure it will.

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