This is all new to me. So, so new.
I can’t believe how calm, relaxed and peaceful I’m feeling after all the sorting and packing that I’ve done in the past three weeks. I feel content. 🙂
I haven’t felt any tiredness. Any fatigue was from the solar flares and other cosmic energies that ushered in the anchoring of The New into my system.
With my packing, though, there was no exhaustion. Not even frustration.
Bitterness. Not this time. Not unlike in my previous travels.
In 2010, I started my process of manifesting my island home in the Philippines. My explorations in eight* destinations always ended with a lot of pain in my heart. Disappointments. Resentments. I’d leave exasperated. Exhausted. Furious! 😮
And I would have ended my stay here in that same state had I persisted on my decision to leave three months ago.
Understanding. Wisdom. Clarity. Appreciation.
I took a two-month travel beginning mid-May. Oh, it was quite an adventure! 🙂
I needed to get away from this resort. All the ongoing challenges in my living situation rendered me sleepless and out of whack that I turned into a monster! 😮
None of the challenges were new news to me, though. Simply a confirmation of what I had already sensed — and feared — at the onset.
It’s just that I had thought — and hoped — that I could work around them.
You see, I thought that there was a way that I could live in harmony vis-a-vis the misaligned energies. I thought that I could wrap my lifestyle around it. Evidently not! Wishful thinking!
Now, I can’t even wrap my brain around how could I even think that! What was I thinking? Or not thinking?!?! As I said, wishful thinking! 🙂
I know. Insight is always in hindsight. 😉
Anyways, the respite did me well — thankfully. I was able to regroup. To come back to my center.
I was also magically led to my next destination.
When I returned in mid-July — impulsive and impatient me with my energy of ‘panggigigil’ — I wanted to quickly pack my stuff and get out of here — fast! ASAP.
Ascension symptoms prevented me — thankfully!
I released misqualified energies. As I recuperated, I began to see with even greater clarity the bigger picture of my living situation. I had a better understanding of why I went through all the distress.
I gained an increased awareness of my Rescuer tendency. I gained greater clarity on how closely tied it is to my core wound, my childhood wound, and self-worth issues. Something that I’m now more mindful of and paying even closer attention to.
Much was sifted. As a result, much has shifted! 🙂
Mindfulness. Gratitude. Appreciation. Contentment.
I started packing on the 9th of October not without making sure that most, if not all of my resentments have dissipated. After all, I didn’t want to take any of those with me. Not anymore. Definitely not the way I have in the past five years!
I was mindful that every item was carefully packed and neatly stashed away — and not haphazardly as I have in the past! — and with nothing but Gratitude, Appreciation, and Contentment for the purpose it has served and the New Experience that I will have with them as I take them along.
I was equally mindful that any item left behind would be passed on to the next rightful ‘owner’ with the same Gratitude, Appreciation, and Contentment.
I made sure that I took as much time as was needed. I wasn’t pressed for a deadline.
Admittedly, though, I still had my I-better-leave-as-soon-as-I-can moments! But I quickly caught myself. I stopped myself from having a deadline. I trained myself to continue trusting in the Universal Flow. That I’ll know when it’s time to go. That everything will fall into place.
And they did. 😀
All these new energies have been intentional. Deliberate. Consciously created.
I created them with all the mindfulness that I could muster. Hey, I sure have begun to tame my ‘panggigigil,’ eh? Yay! 😀
And it is this state of Mindfulness, Gratitude, Appreciation, Contentment — and ‘Panggigigil-lessness’ — that I’ll be taking with me as I embark on a new chapter in my journey.
No resentments. No bitterness.
No regrets. No what’ifs.
shoulda. Woulda. Coulda.
None of the above.
Only a sense of completion. Of feeling more whole. A grander whole! 🙂
When It Is Time To Go, We Will Know
Around this time last year, I was getting my stuff out of the boxes and settling into my new ‘home’ — excitedly.
Now, one year later, I’ve packed away most of my stuff — not quite excitedly. More like contentedly.
Everything feels just right. Everything naturally fits.
I feel complete. Content. Appreciative. Grateful. At Peace.
I feel filled up after having been emptied out. Full but not without room for anything new.
More like a clean slate. A clear state. Empowered and equipped with just the appropriate bag of tools.
Right about the most-fitting space in which to create something new, eh? Just about the ripe time to move on and move forward!
Indeed, when it is time to go, we will know.
Not coincidentally, guests (Europeans mostly) are beginning to flock to the resort as peak season commences. They’re just about ready to have some good frolic in the sea and be filled with endless booze — to the brim and beyond, waaaaay beyond! Hard not to say that, admittedly, without a shot — pun intended — of judgment. Just sayin’…. 😉
And I’m just about ready for a change in scenery myself. I’m ready to frolic in some city energy before I venture out into the countryside once more.
(Talk about Universal Flow and Divine Timing… I’ll be in the city just when ‘SPECTRE’ will be showing in cinemas, yay! I wasn’t a James Bond fan until Daniel Craig came along! 😀 )
When I do, I’ll take with me only the New Memories that I’ve re-created and New Patterns that I’ve begun — much thanks to the persistent, loving nudge and guiding presence of Crow! ❤ ❤ ❤
And I’ll leave with two words and two words only —
* Sugar Beach/Sipalay is the ninth island destination that I’ve explored thus far. In numerology, nine represents completion. A new beginning it sure is for me, yay! And an empowered one at that. One that, as I said, feels clear, clean… even crisp. Yeah!
😀 ⭐ ❤ ⭐ 😀
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