It’s been a week since I returned to Sugar Beach.
As is my ‘gotta-do-it-right-now!’ tendency, I had planned on coming back here to pack immediately my stuff and head off to my next destination — as in immediately!
I didn’t think of giving myself sufficient time to rest. Recharge. Integrate. Be.
Ha! What was I thinking, right?!?! 🙄
I didn’t realize how much time my body needed to assimilate. After all, there has been quite an enormous amount of stuck energies that were shaken out of their wits during my travel. I have been shaken out of my wits, whew! 😆
As I said at the beginning of this post and in an earlier one, I was going through the ascension flu that started on the 7th of this month.
Now, I’m experiencing diarrhea. It started a couple of days after I came back to Sugar Beach. My bowel movement hasn’t quite regularized. Jeez, am I going through major detox! I get the sense that my body is rejecting the misaligned energies in this resort — the extent and degree of the misalignment of which I chose to ignore during my stay.
I’m not completely balanced and fully well yet. There are days or moments when I’m up and about and in my element; There are times when I’m not.
Just the other day, after a couple of days of feeling quite well, I felt feverish again. I needed to sweat out yet more toxins and energies that are no longer serving me.
Yes, I’ve been taking lots and lots of water — even more than my already more than recommended average daily water intake. And lots of fluids. Lots of resting. Relaxing. Being.
And as I’m writing this, I get the feeling that I’m almost over the hump. Maybe. Hopefully. We’ll see. I’m taking it one day at a time.
Take one day at a time.
A message that I heard so strongly during this intense phase. To simply Surrender. It is the most effective way to deal with it. Flow with the energies. Allow them to be expressed and released. Be in the moment, and take one day at a time.
One of those that is easier said than done — for me, at least. One of my major growth opportunities, sheesh! 🙂
As in all of my interactions, my family related issues and childhood wounds have come up so pronouncedly during my intense two-month travel adventure.
(Will they ever not come up anymore at all? I’ll be sharing more on my take on recurring themes, patterns, and issues in future posts. Stay tuned!)
There was nothing new in the theme that played out in my experiences and interactions — the same theme of manipulation and deception.
Another opportunity for me to stay away from the familiar disempowering energies and pattern and create a different one.
And as is usual, there were opportunities for me to further hone my skills of self-assertion and boundary-setting. Of speaking my Truth and baring the Truth.
Another layer is being peeled for deeper healing and clearing. This time though, it was a most deeply healing time.
I shared in an earlier post that I was divinely led to a local shaman who gave me a most significant piece of information. It helped me put together the pieces of my family puzzle.
As I wrote in my post, it is a piece of information that may be “shocking to others but not quite to me as it was simply a confirmation of what I had long sensed and intuited” is what’s been going on in my family. And I’m not quite sure yet how much of it I am willing and can share here and when. I’m still waiting for the Muse’s nudge.
Suffice it to say, a couple of individuals were quite dumbfounded with my revelation, but they finally truly understood and fully supported my decision to keep myself away from my family of origin — which inevitably included the rest of my maternal and paternal clan.
I’m integrating what this medicine woman shared with me, along with all others that have come up for me in the past couple of months, with my experiences here at this resort in Sugar Beach.
And as I prepare myself to wrap up my living situation, my intention is to create my new pattern of leaving a place or situation in a state of Love, Joy and Gratitude.
This, rather than a state of anger and bitterness — as I have done not only in my travels but other situations and relationships. And I would have been in that state had I persisted on my decision to immediately pack up and leave. And I would have continued the same old pattern. 😦
I’m not quite in that state of Love, Joy and Gratitude yet, but I’m getting there; And I know I will.
Meantime, I’m telling myself to….
Breathe. Beam. Be.
Would you like to join me?
Breathe. Beam. Be.
Namaste. Blessed be.
😀 ⭐ ❤ ⭐ 😀
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