A month ago, I was supposed to have flown to Manila. It had been two years since I set foot in the city where I was born and raised.
I wasn’t exactly looking forward to the trip though. Manila, after all, is no longer home to me. Faaaaar from what I now consider ‘home.’ But it’s a trip that I needed to take. Need to take — still.
As I wrote in my recent post, that trip didn’t happen. But I will still be taking it. I just don’t know at this point exactly when.
Instead of taking a trip to Manila that was intended partly for me to bring some stuff back to Sugar Beach, I ended up taking a trip away from Sugar Beach — a place that was my home for a year and a half.
And much has shifted, thankfully, in my perceptions and choices since I left Sugar Beach a month ago. In fact, I needed to leave Sugar Beach in order for the shift to happen — especially after all the sh!t that has happened at the resort!
Don’t we sometimes, if not often need to remove ourselves from the place or situation in order to see the Light and to see Life from a different angle — an angle where everything clicks and makes total sense?
I still have to come back for my stuff that I left behind at the resort when I left in haste — with much disgust and distaste! Just as I still have some stuff as well in Manila to come back for — stuff that needs to be sorted and discarded.
Stuff in Sugar Beach. Stuff in Manila.
But that’s all they are. Stuff.
My heart and my soul are certainly no longer in any of those locations. I do know though that there is some completion that needs to happen for me in those places. And it is when I come back for my stuff that such completion will take place.
But before that happens, I needed to take a detour.
The two years that I have been away from Manila provided me with opportunities for growth that I most certainly wouldn’t have experienced had I stay put there.
In fact, my time away from Manila prepared me for my eventual return — whenever that may be — to deal with the energies there more effectively and more appropriately.
Having lived all this time in the seaside and in much less harsh environment, helped me be in a much clearer, calmer and empowered space to begin sorting and organizing my stuff — physical and whatever else. I have become so much more centered and grounded. Transformed. Renewed. Reborn.
Similarly, the one month that I have been away from Sugar Beach has been one of the most transformative phases in my journey. Such growth and shifts in only one month, whew!
I kid you not.
It’s been quite a while — years, in fact — since I felt the challenges that accompany Mercury Retrograde.
This recent one though has been my most challenging thus far! And I heard with others, too! It was certainly a relief and reassuring to know that it wasn’t simply and only me going nuts! 😀 (How was it with you?)
And part of this recent incredible episode in my journey is me gaining even more clarity with a situation that’s keeping me connected to Manila — energetically and psychically, and painfully I must add. It has something to do with my situation with my family of origin.
I was divinely guided and led to a local shaman. She gave me a most significant piece of information — shocking to others but not quite to me as it was simply a confirmation of what I had long sensed and intuited. Needless to say, I had a light bulb moment. A very bright one at that! 🙂
I cannot just as yet share details about my interactions with the medicine woman. I cannot yet reveal what I was able to unravel and craft as a result of such a magical encounter.
Suffice it to say that all throughout the past month following my departure from Sugar Beach, I have encountered once more the all too familiar energies and themes of manipulation and deception. Betrayal. Abuse. Addiction. Dark energies. Alarmingly dark energies. Uncanny familiar dark energies!
And my growth has come from how quickly and easily I recognized such energies and how differently I dealt with them, yeah! ⭐ ❤ ⭐
Hence, more healing and clearing. Purging and cleansing. Opportunities to discern. Opportunities to trust myself more than anyone else. To trust my inner guidance more than ever. Opportunities to enforce boundaries and say no to energies, people and situations that do not honor, support, love and respect me and my Light.
And all these opportunities showed up every single day since I left Sugar Beach — at times, several times during the day! Even to this very day as I’m writing this post!
Speaking of post, I haven’t posted for a while not because there hasn’t been much to share. It isn’t also because I experienced writer’s block. Far from it.
In fact, my writing skills just couldn’t cope with the speed with which Life has been unfolding — joyfully, thankfully! Just as insights and realizations would come to me, I’d start having a new set of experiences that are revealing yet newer insights and giving me even more clarity!
And all these kept leading me back to my Center and my Light, my Truth and my Joy. To be in the Divine Flow once again, yay! 😀
Allow me to end this for now by saying…
After all and despite the chaos and confusion…
the tears and the fears…
the giving up…
the messing up and the f^c#ing up…
I feel oh so good!
I sure hope you feel the same…
And may you enjoy the video below that says it all! 😀
😀 ⭐ ❤ ⭐ 😀
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