A year ago, on the occasion of this blog’s second anniversary, I decided to let go of my 14-year-old dream of a healing center which I posted about here.
I let go of the form. I let go of materializing it in a physical form.
I fully embraced and became content with my decision of making Aligning With Truth the manifestation of such a center in virtual form only. Through this site, as I write, I’m able to offer what I had envisioned for my long-held dream. (Writing — I realized through this blog site — is my true passion and source of joy.)
I let go with nary a tinge of regret or disappointment. On the contrary, I felt a heavy burden lifted off of my shoulders. I was so much at peace with my decision.
What did I need to do? Simply Align With Truth.
I didn’t think or consider that I failed or that I was a failure when I let go of my dream — although, admittedly, I did struggle with coming up with such a decision. I had conflicted thoughts — something that I’m assuming we all go through when we let go of our dreams, especially long-held ones.
Intense introspection and deep inner work gave me a light bulb moment. I gained clarity on what it is that I truly desired and why I desired it.
I realized that I was coming from the 3D messianic, caretaking, rescuer and a fixer role, feeling as if my mission is to save the world — remnants of a distorted view of the embodiment of Christ consciousness!
“The world doesn’t need any saving; She only needs loving.” ~ Marianne Williamson
As I felt less passionate about setting up a healing center, what has become much clearer and stronger is my desire for connection and a community.
Plus, a peer. Not a mentor. Not a mentee. A peer.
A community of kindred spirits which I prefer to be in my geographical midst.
I know that there’s a reason I’m not amongst like-minded’s in my immediate physical surrounding. I don’t know exactly what that reason is. I don’t know for how long I am going to be in this situation. However, I do know that there’s such a thing as readiness and timeliness and timing to everything and anything.
For now (in fact, for a long time now), I’m finding solace in being surrounded and supported by dear hearts through the internet and this site.
And that’s you lovely readers, followers and fellow bloggers. You — we in blogosphere — are the community of kindred spirits I had been longing for.
It may not be in the form that I’ve wanted, but the essence of a community is certainly there — the connection (emotional and spiritual), the support and respect, the love. All genuine. Purely Heart-based. Truly Soul-led.
A year ago, when I made peace with my choice of making Aligning With Truth the manifestation of a healing center in virtual form only, I became much more committed to my writing and in improving my craft. I became even more prepared to go deeper. To be raw and vulnerable when something would come up in my journey that needs to be released, cleared, aligned, integrated and eventually shared in this site. To be naked in Truth as I align with it.
Now, on the occasion of this blog’s third anniversary, I am making peace with Aligning With Truth being the channel through which my desire for a community of like-minded’s is being fulfilled. Just as the manifestation of my dream of a healing center came in virtual form, my longing for a community and its manifestation is being fulfilled in virtual form as well.
And it doesn’t make it less of a community. It is simply another form through which the essence — which is what’s more important — is being expressed. It being in a virtual form doesn’t weaken the connection; It doesn’t lessen the support. And it most certainly doesn’t diminish the love that is shared.
As I realign my dreams, values and principles, I am realizing that whether I am creating a relationship, a project, a home, a community, a center — anything — I need to be in a space of ease and grace, flowing and allowing.
Pushing, forcing, making an effort, making things happen, exerting and exhausting all possible means and resources — these are all old earth energies. 3D way of manifesting. An approach that I had employed — without much success — for the longest time!
I walked a long, winding hallway that finally led me to the door that opened to this new space which feels so right. So light! And it feels so damn good! 🙂
In this space is where things manifest not from being forced or pushed but from being allowed to flow and unfold. It is in this space where my Light is shining even more brightly than it ever did. So much more than I allowed it. So much more than how others — with my permission, of course, and largely unconsciously — allowed it.
And it is from this newfound joyful and joy-filled space of creation and manifestation where I will be musing, writing and sharing as I begin another year of Aligning With Truth.
Thank you for musing with me and being part of my journey. It is my wish — my blog’s birthday wish — that we continue to be witnesses to each other’s travels. ❤
May we continue to make up the community of such brightly shining and loving souls. May our passion for growth and spirituality, our musings and joy in writing and sharing about them keep us connected and rooted — a connection that transcends time and space, physicality and geography, thanks in part to the Internet!
Namaste and blessed be. 🙂 ❤ ❤ ❤ 🙂
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