This image caught my attention. I was intrigued. I found it mysterious.
There was also a part of me questioning, ‘Is it really mystery that’s being depicted?’‘
The truth is, something felt ‘dark’ about the image. Something deceitful. As if the lady is hiding something. Hiding from something. Masking. Covering up.
Why is she covering her eyes? What is she hiding? The eyes are the windows to the soul. Covering her eyes blocks others from seeing through and into her soul. What is she keeping away from others to see?
I dismissed such thoughts. I even judged myself as being ‘negative.’ Seeing the glass ‘half-empty’ instead of ‘half-full.’
I was inspired to compose a poem about it. The theme? Mystery, what else.
However, for some reason unbeknownst to me — then — I didn’t feel right about publishing it. Interestingly also, it took me a considerably long time to finish writing it. Somehow, something just didn’t feel quite right. It [mystery] wasn’t what I truly felt about the image, but I wanted to deliver a ‘positive’ and uplifting message.
Until now, I still don’t feel like publishing it.
And now I know why.
Deception. Lies. Manipulation. Betrayal.
Trust. My core issue.
In psychologist and psychoanalyst Erik Erikson’s stages of psycho-social development, someone who is severely wounded during the infancy stage will have trust as a core issue later in adult life. And it has certainly been my major issue. Trusting myself and others.
Trust vs. Mistrust. Lack of trust. Overly trusting. Gullibility.
They all fall on the same spectrum, and my lesson is finding the balance — through the art and skill of discernment.
Over the years, I have crossed paths with numerous individuals who would be my teachers-in-disguise with regard to trusting. Some have the most dubious and suspicious of intentions, and I certainly have fallen into the trap many times over!
Not too long ago, I encountered an individual who has just started the ascension path. This person had an awakening and is experiencing huge shifts and transitions necessitating spiritual guidance. A mentor. And I would become a convenient and easy ‘target.’
Much kindness and generosity was extended to me for which I am most certainly appreciative. Something though felt not quite right about our interactions and the goodness accorded me. A sucking of my energies. The energy of desperation was seeping through the silent but piercing cry for help — not to say that it is indeed a much valid and very real plea for help.
I began to feel the imbalance in the exchange of our energies. The lack of fairness in the energy exchange — with me doing all the ‘giving,’ the other, merely the ‘taking,’ — is an all too familiar scenario to me. An habitual theme. A pattern.
Such behavior by the other of only ‘taking’ without any ‘giving‘ may be unintentional or unconscious. The other person may not even be aware of it, but that doesn’t make such ill-intentioned and self-serving behavior more permissible.
Last night, I came across Sue Dreamwalker’s post that included an image of an owl, a lovely work of love. I didn’t give Owl’s appearance any meaning.
Immediately after reading her post though, I was moved to consult Colette Baron-Reid’s oracle cards about how to move forward with my situation with this individual (and others who are in a similar predicament as I have been magnetizing them of late.)
The card I picked?
“The Owl lends you eyes that you need in order to see in the dark around you. The Owl can cut through the shadows to illuminate the real truth. Someone may be trying to camouflage his or her real intentions. Deceit, lies, and unclear intentions are exposed with Owl energy. The Owl also reminds you to be honest with yourself and snap out of any lies or denial inside you. Lying to yourself is the way that you’ll remain lost in a prison of your own making. The Owl appears to ask you to seek the truth in the darkest places within yourself. This will set you free and restore you to wholeness. All is well with the Owl to guide you. Deep wisdom into human nature is gained through the ability to recognize untruths. This is an important marker on your path.’
Now, that certainly got my attention! Light bulb moment! What was hidden came to light.
The image of the ‘mystery lady’ wasn’t delivering a message of mystery. It was speaking of deception. Manipulation. I had already heard that from my inner voice, but I chose to ignore it — again!
Through the years, I cannot count the number of times when I felt and sensed the dubiousness and deviousness in an individual, but I often chose to dismiss it. I opted to see only the innate goodness in everyone.
How could I think that someone can be that dubious and cunning? How could I even think that about them? Such scheming ways are not part of my make-up, so it’s difficult for me to imagine it in others.
But doesn’t it “take one to know one?” Believe me, countless are the times when I’ve gone back and forth with that. Might I not be the one with the ‘evil’ thoughts, thinking ill of the other?
Gullibility is at the extreme end of the trust spectrum, remember?
Thanks to OWL though, as the oracle card says,
“Deep wisdom into human nature is gained through the ability to recognize untruths.”
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