“Nadine, don’t just keep on charging in. Observe first. Feel the surroundings or the situation. And then, decide if you will take the plunge, wait, or step back.”
An apt reminder from the water spirits. I am reminded in a not-so-pleasant way.
After taking a daily swim in the sea for three consecutive months, (often, even twice a day), my regimen is put to a halt when I take a quick trip to the “nearest” major city — which is three hours by car or five hours by bus. Yes, where I’m at is that remote!
I am away for only a few days, but I terribly miss being in the water. I am thirsting for sea water! Salivating! My body longs for it; My whole being craves for it.
During the bus ride back, I imagine the exhilaration of sea water caressing my skin as I glide through it…The nurturing feeling of being cradled in the loving arms of Mother Ocean. I couldn’t wait to submerge myself once again as I gently slide my hands through the water. I couldn’t wait to have a taste of its saltiness and be cleansed, purified and rejuvenated!
Summer in the Philippines though is officially over. The month of June is the beginning of the rainy season, but I am desperate! My desperation for being in the water, my childishness, my stubbornness, my humanness — all these get the better of me!
I turn a blind eye to the strong waves crashing against the shore. All my wisdom quickly flies out the window as I throw caution, all caution, to the wind — a “mistake,” a lesson that I learn in a somewhat frightening way. An error in judgment. A lesson on discernment.
I am not an expert swimmer although I certainly have improved my swimming abilities, most especially in recent months. I have come a long, long way from my days when I wouldn’t even swim unless my feet could touch the bottom. I stand 4′ 8 1/2″ (1.44 m), so we’re talking reeeeally shallow water! 🙂
It’s only in recent months that I began to be truly comfortable swimming in deep water. It is one of the treasured gifts that have blessed me with having discovered this swimmer’s paradise that is Sugar Beach.
So, navigating myself through strong waves and turbulent waters is new territory to me. It is taking my relationship with water to another level.
I attempt to time my entry into the water in between the coming of the waves. Strong, huge waves. Quite intimidating, I must add!
In a matter of one or two seconds, a strong wave throws me quickly, and quite fiercely, back to the shore! Thankfully, Sugar Beach is a sandy beach — there are no rocks where I could have bumped my head or body against. In fact, there being no corals or rocks and only sand is partly why I was so courageous (and yes, as I said earlier, desperate) to take a swim —- despite the very obvious strong waves.
With my ultra petite stature and the strength and enormity of the wave, it is quite evident who has the upper hand. That is clear to the wave and everyone else but me!
What was I thinking? Was I even thinking? Oh yes, I sure was thinking —- just not intelligently!
Ahhh…me and my stubbornness and determination — thanks and maybe, no thanks, this time at least, to my Taurus Sun Sign! It is moments like this that my Taurean determination (alright, hard-headedness) surely doesn’t come handy. In fact, it is moments like this that it is not supposed to come handy.
The timely and apt message from the water spirits is very loud and very clear —
”Nadine, don’t just keep on charging in. Observe first. Feel the surroundings or the situation. And then, decide if you will take the plunge, wait, or step back.”
Do I go back in the water immediately after I am harshly thrown back to shore? Am I that desperate?
Absolutely not! It’s one thing to focus, be determined and persistent; It’s another to be a dumb-ass! 🙂
This truly memorable, nerve-wracking, and a most certainly humbling experience serves as a reminder of that one important lesson that I am still mastering — Discernment.
“In healthy discernment, we stop, listen, look around, open to possibility, assess, wait, and then step or leap into action with deliberate intent…. We can choose to respond or not — time for deep listening to our inner and outer world… to respond, wait, or turn away.” ~ Pegge Bernecker, Discerned Action
Grant me the wisdom, in any situation, to determine when and how I will respond, when is it time to take action, when is it better to wait, or when is it best instead, to simply walk away.
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to master how to discern and everything else that I am supposed to learn.
P.S. In other words Source, please help me be less of a dumb-ass next time! 😉
Related articles and resources:
- Discerned Action
- Eyes Wide Open: Cultivating Discernment On the Spiritual Path by Mariana Caplan, PhD
- Decision Making & Spiritual Discernment: The Sacred Art of Finding Your Way (Art of Spiritual Living) by Nancy Bieber
- Sugar Beach: A Swimmer’s Tropical Island Paradise
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