i want people to let me be
i want to live my life freely
i want to be who I want to be
but what does that mean really?
to be free,
to think freely,
to speak freely,
to live freely.
do i spill out my gut,
tell ‘em, show ‘em all i’ve got,
everything i’m at liberty
to think, say or do — instantly, unreservedly
no editing, no filtering,
simply anything and everything
in my heart, mind, body and spirit’s every nook and cranny
is that what it means to be free and to think, speak and live freely?
when i think freely,
do i let the thoughts enter my head spontaneously and uncontrollably,
or do i control my thoughts, immediately putting a halt to my thinking process,
when i have a destructive thought, aimed only at causing more separateness?
when i speak freely,
do i blurt out every thought, feeling, emotion, because i want to speak in all honesty?
freedom of speech after all, is a right accorded to you and me,
or do i choose my words carefully and wisely,
not so much because i’m too guarded and restricted that i lose the spontaneity,
but more so because i need to express only what’s essential and necessary?
when i live freely,
do i throw caution to the wind, living as i choose openly and fearlessly,
and do i do it obliviously, unaware to whatever or whoever is around and beyond me?
or can i be a free spirit and live freely,
genuinely, sincerely, truthfully, and do so with responsibility?
there will be moments that i will falter and forget, undoubtedly,
and i will behave without any mindfulness and only out of sheer childishness.
these are moments when i can practice the art of forgiveness,
and remind myself that such forgetfulness
is simply a reflection of my humanness.
i can give myself the voice,
i can do so quietly, or with much fanfare and noise
i can give myself the chance
to laugh, to love, to cry, to sing or to dance.
i can give myself the right to be free and to live freely
but Great Spirit, please help me remember to choose every thought, word, and deed wisely and mindfully.
to be free is to live consciously,
to live in authenticity and with integrity
surely it isn’t easy
but that’s not reason for me to think, speak or live carelessly.
perhaps a question to ask that will help guide me
for every thought, word or deed that wants to be expressed through me —
what would i think, say or do, what would my behavior be, how would i be
if Jesus, Krishna or the Buddha were me?
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