In November 1999, I participated in a retreat conducted by Bro. Bo Sanchez in Manila, Philippines. Bo is a preacher, a best-selling author and lay evangelist who started preaching at the age of 13.
I was still in the corporate world then but had already started my healing journey. To my pleasant surprise, the retreat gave me my first glimpse of what was probably my deeply and unconsciously repressed dream: to have my own retreat center or a center for healing and spirituality.
While I was taken aback with my discovery and the vision that I received, I welcomed it with excitement as well as some level of doubt, quite understandably. But I trusted and I have held on to that dream ever since.
After I left the corporate world in 2000, one year after that pivotal retreat, I participated and got involved in a number of non-profit organizations and associations. I focused on healing, spirituality, metaphysics and paranormal phenomena. My primary intention though was on healing myself.
Along the way, I met individuals and groups who shared my dream and passion for a center for healing. Yet there was something that would always come up that would make me doubt if that individual or group is the one that I would work with in fulfilling my dream. It was either not the right people or not the right time.
A rose by any other name would still smell as sweet;
A healing center by any other shape or form would still be a place for
Today, that center has not quite manifested in the shape and form that I had been envisioning it. But I continue to hold on to my dream. And I continue to have faith and to trust in the process. I continue to believe that to everything, there is a season. And everything is in divine and perfect order and timing, at any given moment.
I continue to hold that vision that I first had in November 1999. I continue to hold it with much sacredness and loving anticipation and gentle nurturance.
People who have known about this dream have even viewed my process to be quite lengthy. They’ve asked me, What is taking it so long? What is taking you so long?
Admittedly, there were moments when I’d entertain those questions and I’d have the same doubts. Yet there has been this constant voice in me that’s telling me not to give up, and especially not to be influenced by others’ thoughts and opinions. Someone once told me, “Do not give up just before the miracle shows up.“
Perhaps there is something else in the vast horizon that my limited human capacity has yet to see. All I know is when all the elements are ready, that’s when it will materialize.
Besides, who is to say when something is taking too long (or too soon for that matter). Time after all is relative. Our concept of time is even debatable. In fact, in the subtler realms, time as we know it, does not even exist. What takes a hundred years in human concept, can be just a fleeting moment in the higher dimensions.
As I redefine myself and what truly matters to me, I continue to refine the details of my dream and my vision. Just as I am work-in-progress, so is the center. I need to go through my own healing and transformation first before I can take my work and my learning out into the world. The Universe has been teaching me a lesson that I am still mastering: patience.
Had I allowed myself to succumb to the pressure from other people and forced myself to establish a center, that center would most certainly have closed shop by now. I have learned that I needed to reinvent myself first. I needed to first fill in my bag of tools that helped me in healing myself before I could even start helping others.
I have also shifted my focus from the form to the essence of my dream. After all, it is the essence rather than the form that’s of utmost importance.
My personal vision is to be a channel for the healing and transformation of humanity, in remembrance of one’s Divinity and oneness with all of creation. A physical center is only one way through which this vision can materialize and my mission can be accomplished.
Aligning With Truth – a virtual center for healing
Today, the site Aligning With Truth serves as a virtual center for healing. As we connect with each other and gather and meet as a community, virtually and telepathically, healing and transformation can take place.
In time, my dream will manifest in the shape and form that is for the highest interest of everyone concerned.
I am now allowing it to take the shape it deems fitting. And as I surrender my vision and offer it to the Universe, I pray, “Father-Mother God, this, or something better.”
In October 2011, I caught a replay of an episode of The Oprah Winfrey Show that featured a woman who gave birth, not to her daughter, but to her daughter’s child. Yes, she was a surrogate mother to her grandson.
Retired at the age of 60, she wondered what it was that she could do in her life that would truly make a difference. Her daughter had a number of miscarriages and was no longer fit to bear a child. Believing that it was a spiritual calling, she decided to carry the baby in her womb for her daughter. She became an instrument for a miracle birth.
As I watched this woman glow from her laudable and heroic act, I heard my inner voice utter, ”You’re never too old and it’s never too late for anything.”
It was a gentle reminder. That message couldn’t have come more aptly. Indeed, everything has its own Divine Timing. And more than merely patiently waiting, I am now consciously practicing the art of allowing.
When all the elements are ready, I will see the fruition of my dream. And when sufficient nurturance has been given to what I have been carrying in my womb, I will give birth to my center for healing.
And that is my deepest Truth, and I am aligning with it.
Nadine Marie V. Niguidula, M.A., 16 December 2011
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Update - My dream of a healing center is a dream that I’ve let go of. On the occasion of this blog’s 2nd anniversary on November 11, 2013, inthe post “Aligning With Truth Turns Two“, here’s what I wrote:
“Giving birth to Aligning With Truth and nurturing it for two years taught me two very important lessons:
1. I don’t need a building for a healing center; and
2. I don’t need a classroom, nor do I need to be confined within four walls, which I have difficulty with anyway, in order to “teach” and share what I’m learning and realizing, and what’s helping me as I move along my path. (I’m enclosing the word teach in quotation marks because I’ve become uncomfortable using that term, what it implies, and how it’s being utilized, especially by the supposed “teachers”, “gurus”, “masters.” I’ll talk about it in future posts.)
I am letting go of the form that I had envisioned the center to look like. The form that I was so focused on creating that I was limiting myself, hindering the many other possibilities that could be created and manifested. Those which would give me even much greater joy and freedom. Healing through writing being one of them.
I don’t need a building for a healing center; I don’t need a classroom to “teach”.
My biggest realization — I was operating from a 3D level of consciousness. I had 3D-based intentions. I was using 3D tools to build, to create, to manifest in the 5D world and reality. Duh!”
To read the entire article, here’s the link http://mytruthsetsmefree.wordpress.com/2013/11/11/aligning-with-truth-turns-two/
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